Is It Too Risky to Fall in Love?

Falling in love is like being high as a kite for days or weeks on end. In fact in this way you could say being with the one you love is a bit like smoking crack, and just as addictive. In love, we long for each other when we are apart and gain immeasurable pleasure from being together. Ecstatic energy flows between two bodies rapt in love. We blithely bathe in oceans of lust. When falling in love we cannot get enough.

For many people what they wish for most is to fall in love. And yet, the potential consequences of a love gone wrong are so devastingly and crushingly brutal that the aftermath of a relationship turned sour can literally be a life destroyed. People kill others for love. People kill themselves out of love. Depression and heart break are symptoms of falling in love with the wrong person. All of which makes me wonder – is it too risky to fall in love?

Falling in love has to be one of the most intoxicating mental states available to us in the great pantheon of mundane and crazy experiences that comprise the human condition. In fact, looking back at the experience from a decidedly sober and not ‘falling in love’ state of mind, it strikes me how ridiculous and almost delusional the whole process seems. It’s not just the subjective experience of being completely besotted with someone else, it’s the way we become so willing to give up so much to be with that other. Love is strong. Love strips us of our volition. Love derails plans, estranges us from friends and empties our pockets.

Falling in love is inherently risky. Most relationships fail and even those that ‘work’ are fraught with difficulties along the way. Falling in love exposes our deepest insecurities, triggers powerful feelings, and bestows great power in the hands of another. Falling in love opens us up to rejection, to not being good enough. Falling in love makes us vulnerable and invites the possibility that to the one we love we are unloveable. Love is a land inhabited by demons and devils. Only the brave would dare to tread here.

At least you’d think so, but in reality we do not choose to fall in love, love chooses us. Or rather, mysterious and powerful unconscious forces propel us irreversibly to collide with the universe of another. Only if we have been hurt sufficiently do we start to question whether we want to fall in love. Or maybe we proceed with more caution, chastened by experience, battle weary and wary of exposing ourselves to more pain.

Ultimately though, love can be a powerful tool. It is one of life’s great teachers, if we are receptive to it’s lessons and pay attention to the wisdom it can inspire. The burning light of love exposes the darkest recesses of our hearts. It shows us the ways in which we hurt, the ways we react when our insecurities are triggered, and offers us the opportunity to bring these ghouls out of the dark and in to conscious awareness. Slowly we are given a method by which to integrate our pain, and with the other, or without the other, we grow.

It is sometimes said that before you can love someone else you have to love yourself. I think this is a stupid saying – not least because it gets banded about without anyone really knowing what it means, and in any case you can’t just simply decide to start loving yourself all of a sudden. However I do think these words allude to an important truth. Before we can have a truly healthy relationship in love, one in which we are not using the other in order to fill something missing within ourselves, we need to be whole. This means we need to have developed to the point where our sense of self worth is not dependent on the validation of another.

Until life is ‘okay’ without the sweetness of our beloved’s touch, we run the risk of being broken by any subsequent withdrawal of love. And this is the challenge. Often, without consciously realising it, many people will use love because it will provide them with a sense of what they most need – to know that they are worthy of someone’s affection, to know that they are not alone. But to rely on someone else for these comforts is to deny ourselves the opportunity of discovering them within oursleves. We take when we should give, and despite feeling strengthened by relationship, we give our power away.

Yes, it is risky to fall in love, too risky perhaps. It is also seldom a choice we make. But for those consumed by love’s mysterious waters, who are able to listen and learn, love is a teacher and love will help us grow. Love will hurt, but slowly love can heal.

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3 comments

  1. I really identified with ”Only if we have been hurt sufficiently do we start to question whether we want to fall in love. Or maybe we proceed with more caution, chastened by experience, battle weary and wary of exposing ourselves to more pain.” I was in the first part, now I’m at the second stage, proceeding with extreme caution, sometimes still questioning whether I want to fall in love at all. I’ve reached a point where I feel good on my own, growing and experiencing life to its fullest. Love really does ”chain” us in a way. Not sure I want that. But then again, with the right person… 😉 I’ve learned not to just ‘settle’ for second best. 🙂 Thanks for sharing these thoughts, they were right on spot!

  2. Hey Lin thanks, yeah I think that although it doesn’t feel like it at the time these experiences can be vehicles for getting to know ourselves better, and ultimately entering into relationship from a much stronger and healthier position. Only with the benefit of hindsight do we see this though and it’s useless trying to console anyone with this information when they are in the throws of it! I think where you say you’re at is a pretty good place.. Entering into a relationship feeling empowered rather than lacking has got to be better for everyone. Depending on whatever baggage someone is carrying can just take an awful lot of time and pain to get there! Thanks again.

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